Monday, May 19, 2014

Starting a Blog

This is me not writing. 
Starting a blog is trying something new and its hard. With all new things, at first you're really excited and you can't stop thinking about it. You want to post constantly and everything you write sounds amazing. However, after that initial happy honeymoon period you sit down and try to write again. However, all you can think is, is this dumb? this sounds horrible, i can't write about this and so on.

So you stop writing because nothing sounds just right, so, its no longer exciting, its simply just work. Something you feel like you're forced to do and getting no benefit from. At least with homework you get you get graded for you effort, now you're just writing for a blog no one knows about. That no one will probably be interested in. So, you just stop. You stop writing because you think its stupid.

But then a week goes by and you feel bad that you stopped. You feel bad because you wanted this to work, you wanted to be able to continue to write. You feel like you let people down you aren't even reading your blog, but ultimately you let yourself down because you couldn't stick with it. However, you still can't think of what to write about so, you just continue to not write and continue to feel that way.

However, another week goes by and you still can't think of anything to write about so, you don't. Then, when you least expect it something comes to you to write about and you feel the need to write about it right then. So, you do, but as you get to the end you think well what if this is just like before, what if i just stop writing again. So, you question you question continuing to write at all.

Like everything that is worth doing you just have to keep trying to see if it will change. For some reason this is reminding me of coming over an addiction, how it does not always work the first time. Changing in life is always hard. To do something new it is a change, so, to change you must keep trying, it doesn't always work the first time. So, we have to keep trying, even if we're worried the same thing will occur again, if we don't then we'll never change.

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